grindset

How many things have I promised you?
How many things have I wanted to promise,
    and not?
When I told you
    I'll stop,
or that
    I hate the taste,
or that
    was the last time, and
        I'm quitting
            I flushed it
                I promise I

    get up at 7:15 every day,
        let the cat out,
            boil water for
                coffee and
        stare at the water.
I promise I don't want to swim in it.

All that it takes is to do it, to get up
    at 7:15 every day, paracetamol
        under your tongue and your
            phone in the ocean, stop
                talking to both of your
                    parents and stop read-
                        ing anything anyone
                            says on the inter-
                                net don't read
                                    the newspa-
                                        pers don't
                                            skip your
                                                break
                                                    fast
                                                    and

I swear I'll blow everything up,
    fuck my life up forever to keep this one.